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I'm Not Who I Was

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.  See, I am doing a new thing!  Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?  I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.  Isaiah 43:18, 19

For as many years as I can remember I have wished and wanted to get back to my pre-momma size.  Before my parenting days, I could have been classified as "one hot momma", but now I'm just a momma and hot only comes in flashes.

I have recently begun a new journey towards a healthier me and not because it is a new year, but because it is time.  I am ready to look good but more than that I am ready to feel good.  Last night as I spent time in the Word I felt God whispering the words of Isaiah to my soul.  "Forget the past!  I am doing something new!  I am making a way where there seemed to be no way."  Those words danced in my mind with the idea of moving beyond what I looked like half my life ago to what and who I want to be in Christ Jesus in the years to come!

For a very long time I have blamed my weight gain on everything but myself.  Yes, I did have four children (each delivered via c-section).  Yes, I suffered post-partum depression after their births.  Yes, I have had as many miscarriages as healthy babies.  Yes, I have fought against the symptoms of fibromyalgia since my college days.  But it was the poor choices in response to each of those things that has brought me to where I am today.

And where am I?  I am a thirty-five year old woman living in a seventy year old body, and I'm obese.  (I hate that word, but it is what it is.. thankfully it won't be that for much longer!)

My family - Summer 2011


So what am I doing about it?

Well, at the first of the year I stopped drinking all soda.  I have always been a big time Diet Coke drinker - as in one in my hand at all times.  Two weeks ago I decided no more.  And I stopped drinking them.

This week I have started exercising.  Thanks to Wii fitness and my good buddy, Boondocks (my Golden Retriever who is serving as my personal trainer for this journey), I am on my third consecutive day.  This morning I rolled out of bed two and a half hours earlier than usual so that Boon and I could walk.  (In case you don't think walking a dog is a grueling work-out, I invite you to come meet Boon.  He's a 70+ pound eleven month old puppy with a mind of his own!)  


I have also begun to change my eating habits.  I am eliminating all white from my diet which is a biggie for me as white foods tend to be my favorites.  Using www.myfitnesspal.com I entered my current weight and height and shared how much weight I would like to lose.  It came back with a count of how many calories I should eat and how many calories I need to burn each day to meet my goal.  Furthermore, it allows me to enter each food I eat and each exercise I complete to give me a total of the calories eaten verses burned.

Baby Boondocks and me - Mother's Day 2011
I am drinking water like there is no tomorrow.  I have learned that I LOVE water if it's been filtered through a Brita pitcher.  Who knew?

These are all baby steps.  I know that it's not going to be an overnight change.  I know there will be days that I want a Diet Coke or chocolate, but I am committing to choosing the better so that I might become my best.

In all of this God is my guide and my deliverer.

My ultimate goal is MORE GOD and a lot less me.

My lips will shout for joy 
when I sing praise to you— 
I whom you have delivered. Psalm 71:23



I will be sharing my journey here.  You're welcome to come along.  And if you are at myfitnesspal.com, send me a friend request.  I'm agapegoldens.

Comments

  1. You know I love ya! So glad to be on this journey together!!

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  2. you go girl! just like lyndra said, "we're in this together!"

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  3. Keep up the good work!

    Blessings,

    Amy

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  4. You go, Girl! I am so proud of you. I want to make changes, too. I know you will succeed. You are an "over-comer"!!!

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  5. good for you my friend!

    Hang in there...the hard days WILL be hard...you WILL want to give in but remember that picture of the new and better that lies ahead!

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