Friday, November 2, 2012
That's where I am today... for the second day.
I have run and chauffeured all over tarnation for the past few days and now I'm paying the price.
I am blessed with a husband that is understanding of the havoc Fibromyalgia wreaks on me. He knows that I want to LIVE LIFE full speed ahead. He knows my heart and understands how depressing it is for me when I am limited by what I can do. But beyond him, very few people understand.
People think I'm not dependable. I'm considered as lazy and unreliable.
Friends and family are left disappointed in me.
And it breaks my heart.
I admire those with Fibromyalgia who live normal lives. They work forty hours a week, attend all expected social functions, cook and clean, volunteer, and still have time for friends and family. They carry on despite the pain and fatigue.
To do anything I do on any day is to push through and do it anyway, but when I've done everything I can for as long as I can, I crash and I burn. And it ain't a pretty sight.
I long to return to the workforce. My family needs my contribution. And yet how could I work a forty hour week when I can't go a full two days doing normal activities.
I'd hoped the weight loss would help spark more energy. While it definitely helps not carrying around an extra fifty pounds, I still hurt and ache. I'm still drowsy after being up for just a few hours.
To say I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired is an understatement.
I want to live life.
I don't want to spend another day in bed.
I want to enjoy my children while they are young and want me to be part of their lives.
I want to do what people expect of me.
I want to know what a day without pain is like.
I want to know what it is like to feel rested.
I want to have a career.
I want a normal life.
I want to live.
(Tune in next time for my normal, cheerful, non-self-pitying post!)
Saturday, August 25, 2012
We have successfully survived our first week back to school. This year I have kids entering and finishing elementary and entering and finishing middle school. I'm not sure how that is possible as I am not old enough to have kids that old. ;-)
In addition to the kids doing their grade specific work using Switched on Schoolhouse, we are doing unit studies so that we can come together and learn and explore as a family. Our first unit study is on a subject of interest to all six of us: SPACE.
Our first field trip of the year was to the planetarium to see a sky show. It was great fun, and although we did not agree with the teachings of many of the secular theories regarding space, it was an entertaining and educating experience.
We are using the books, "Taking Back Astronomy" by Jason Lisle and "Finding the Constellations" by H.A. Rey, the author of the Curious George series with our study. And thanks to Pinterest we have many space themed activities to keep us busy throughout the month of September. (You can find my HOMES COOL pinterest board HERE.)
We are also taking advantage of our handy pocket star finder to use while star gazing. You use it to adjust the time of year to show you exactly what stars you are looking at. We also love using the Google Sky Map application on my Android smart phone to help us navigate the night skies.
In our study we will explore the idea of the story of the Bible from creation to the fall of man, from the crucifixion to Christ's second coming being written out in the stars. The Heavens truly declare the glory of God and we are looking forward to becoming intimately aware of just how much they share with us.
Earlier this week, the six of us laid on the trampoline star gazing for an hour or more. During that time God allowed us to view a more awesome sky show than any the planetarium had to offer - it was complete with thousands of stars, several shooting stars, and even lightening.
Next week is to be filled with several experiments and crafts to help us better understand the mysteries of space. We also hope to camp out so that we might spend an entire night away from the bright lights of town star gazing. Stop back by to be part of our adventure - to infinity and beyond!
Saturday, August 18, 2012
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