After having been asked to be a featured blogger for the parenting community on Wellsphere.com, I have spent a lot of time considering the state of my own health. And to be bluntly honest, the choices I make daily concerning my health aren't that great. Our family eats out too often. I drink too many soft drinks and not enough water. And usually I stay so tired that I do not have the motivation to do as much exercising as I want or need.
I made the mistake of taking the Depo-Provera birth control shot after my first child was born. While I had not gained much during my pregnancy with her, after getting the shot I bled continually for a year and during that time I packed on the pounds. The eight years that followed found me pregnant, having just had a baby, or going through a miscarriage. As for the past two years since my last baby arrived, I have used the excuse that I'm too tired or too busy to work to get rid of this weight once and for all.
While I do have a close walk with God, it saddens me to admit that I do not spend the time in prayer and Bible study that I desire to spend. No matter what I am doing, I am constantly interrupted by my children. (I can't count how many times I have started writing this blog, been interrupted, stopped, and had to start over.) This seems to hold especially true when I try to stop and pray, read my Bible, or spend time in "in depth" study. My children are my life's greatest joy, and for this time of my life I know and accept that I have been called to be in a "Martha season." But sometimes I really long to be more like Mary.
And while I'm on the subject of talking about things in my life that aren't quite the way I want them to be, this gives me the perfect opportunity to moving on to the topic of my house. I clean and clean and clean. I wash loads of laundry and yet it never seems completed. As I work my way through the house to clean and de-clutter, one to four children follow behind me undoing all that I have done. It feels like I'm fighting a losing battle. I want a clean house that is readily available to comfortably welcome any guest who may wish to enter. More often than not though, if someone stops by unexpectedly, we'll chat on the front porch!
So why am I so negative today? Not usually like me, is it? The answer is: I am not being "negative". I am identifying areas in my life that need to change and realizing that NOTHING CHANGES IF NOTHING CHANGES.
More than anything I want to live a life that is pleasing to Christ. I also want my family to be proud of me and to always feel comfortable in our home. The first thing that has to happen before anything on my list will be different is an inner, personal change in my own life, in my own choices, and in my own habits. I need to re-prioritize my time in a way that maximizes the opportunities I am given.
And here I am, sharing my imperfections with the world wide web in an attempt to have a wide audience to help hold me accountable to my goals.
Here are a few things I am trying to change over the next 40 days. After that time I pray these things will be established as habits in my life.
**I commit to spend thirty minutes of my day in quiet, uninterrupted, prayer and study time with God.
**I commit to drink at least eight glasses of water a day.
** I commit to making my home a haven. It will be clean before we leave to go somewhere and before we go to bed each night. My family will help.
** I commit to walking at least three times a week.
** I commit to drinking less soda and eating smaller portions.
** I commit to spend less time on the computer and more time being active.
As water reflects a face, so a man's heart reflects the man. Proverbs 27:19